The Shattered Door

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The Shattered Door [Read] ➵ The Shattered Door ➼ Brandon Witt – Polishdarling.co.uk After a tortured childhood and years of soul searching, Brooke Morrison has finally settled into a comfortable life While his sexuality prohibits him from practicing his degree in youth ministry in a After a tortured childhood and years of soul searching, Brooke Morrison has finally settled into a comfortable life While his sexuality prohibits him from practicing his degree in youth ministry The Shattered Epub / in a church setting, he s found a fulfilling job as a youth counselor at a residential treatment facility in Colorado He falls in love, marries the man of his dreams, and makes peace with God He s happyThen his buried past drags him back to the OzarksThe life Brooke has worked so hard to build is crumbling in his hands in the face of painful memories and past abuse, and his confidence is withering In El Dorado Springs, where his nightmares come to life, Brooke desperately seeks closure life doesn t offer Brooke must find value in himself, in his marriage, and in the world around him and create the hope and perseverance to keep his past from swallowing him whole.


10 thoughts on “The Shattered Door

  1. Mark Mark says:

    This was an incredibly brave book I think The bare bones of the story is of a gay man returning to his home town to encounter and face up to the past he fled which includes an appallingly cruel mother and unresolved side issues of rejection and self acceptance which is complicated by an unexplained situation with his work which involved caring for and counselling young offenders.It is also a love story, a story of injustice and intolerance, of deep friendships and family ties and central to the This was an incredibly brave book I think The bare bones of the story is of a gay man returning to his home town to encounter and face up to the past he fled which includes an appallingly cruel mother and unresolved side issues of rejection and self acceptance which is complicated by an unexplained situation with his work which involved caring for and counselling young offenders.It is also a love story, a story of injustice and intolerance, of deep friendships and family ties and central to the whole thing, and it is this as a gay Christian that i found so moving, is the struggle of men and women seeking a relationship with God to find the support in a Church that is not renowned for its tolerance or openness.The characters are, to a large extent and with one or two exceptions, well drawn and Witt captures the repartee and cut and thrust of friends and lovers really well i think He comunicates that sense of common history and experience between friends without it becoming cloying or heavily artificial or obviously false I am not saying he always achieves this but there arehits than misses here As a first person narrative it works because we encounter the world through Brooklyn s eyes and these eyes are largely clear and positive though they do, from time to time, become jaded and bitter The other characters speak and communicate clearly and openly and so his response is one which we can follow and understand A small caveat here would be perhaps that some of the characters are a little too good to be true and the faith positions of one or two, Sue his Aunt in particular, smack of having been jammed on the top of a not particularly believable character She is the figure of the simple woman of faith but she did not ring true for me and so her fears and responses and minor repentances always seemed a tad dry and dusty Having said that I think some of the characters were fabulous and evn if they were not real i would want them to be in my friendship circle or sitting next to me at Church.That is one inevitable drawback to a book such as this I am a catholic and found Witt spoke to me in a good deal of the narrative drive, especially in the hero s own faith journeying and the questions he had had to address and indeed with which he was still struggling but i do wonder whether many people coming to this book without a faith and therefore perhaps without the mindset of Brooke would see no deeper than the idea that it was a book about prejudice and the intolerance of the Church and not see Brooke s quest as a genuine and reasonable one or indeed one worth wasting any time over This would seem to me to be a shame Though it would be a small circle of interest if dwelling too much on the specifics I think Witt really addresses all sorts of questions about trust and fidelity to friend and family, about judging by appearance and the foulness of hypocrisy, about freedom and the courage to be real which are, i suppose, basic questions of humanity.My negatives are few but are, for me, real When this goes to a second edition, and I certainly hope it will, the publishers must get a better proof reader and punctuation expert I had begun to mark the mistakes in the book but after 40 I thought it superfluous Words are spelt wrong on a regular basis, apostrophes sometimes seem to have lives of their own and words are sometimes omitted in the most unfortunate of circumstances At one point our hero is speaking to a young lad who is coming out to him Before i could stop him, he fell forward and wrapped his around my waist and pulled tightly against me It is obvious what word is missing but the fact that it is just smacked of some cheap double entendre Evidently that is not what was meant but it is unfortunate to say the least This is one of a number of such mistakes which come at emotionally charged moments in the narrative and jar horribly.There is also the perpetual hazard of the omnipresent gorgeous people Some of you who have read other of my reviews have perhaps encountered my dislike of this need for authors to write as though everyone in the world is either beautiful once was is on the way to being or they are on the side of the Trogledytes I find this continual having to big up the beauty of characters annoying Of course it could be rank jealousy I acknowledge but I do think it isthan just me feeling bereft that I am not an English Brad Pitt Plain people can be lovely too and they can also be very romantically involved i am sure Wouldn t it be great if just once the heroes and heroines of these books were allowed to be just normal and did not need to be straight off Mt Olympus Maybe i should start a campaign for ordinary looking plebs to dominate some romance plots.Having griped and moaned I would not want any person to think that i am heavily criticizing this novel I found it very moving from all sorts of angles and, in relation to the whole misplaced temptation to make gay and paedophile synonymous, I think it was an honest and brilliant account Thanks Brandon Really worth reading


  2. Gitte TotallyBookedBlog Gitte TotallyBookedBlog says:

    Reviewed on think I can safely say that this story is one which has touched me and affected methan many before it Every so often, and I mean often, I had to stop reading and try and process and digest what I d just read Call me na ve, hell, call me ignorant, but I have never in my thirty eight years of life come across anything remotely close to what I just read I grew up in five different countries, lived insmall villages, towns and citi Reviewed on think I can safely say that this story is one which has touched me and affected methan many before it Every so often, and I mean often, I had to stop reading and try and process and digest what I d just read Call me na ve, hell, call me ignorant, but I have never in my thirty eight years of life come across anything remotely close to what I just read I grew up in five different countries, lived insmall villages, towns and cities than is typical growing up, yet I have never come across such hatred or even personally known of its existence Yet exist it does, sadly It breaks my heart.However, this story is not just a story of prejudice and hate, it s a story of family and friendships, of support and guidance, of love and hope What I have to mention is that there is obviously a heavy theme of religion which isn t for everyone It actually isn t something I myself enjoy in books, however, this story is about so muchand if you re like me, you will fall in love with the characters and the battle of staying true to who you are to achieve contentment and happiness in life.What our hero Brooklyn has to go through as a gay Christian whose vocation in life not job may I add is helping kids in youth groups, is truly appalling Not only has he had a traumatic childhood, it literally continues into his adulthood This guy is still finding his place in life whilst his sexuality, his beliefs, his past and his present makes him question himself tremendously His growth and his strength in this story is immense as he finds love and purpose His wanting to be accepted for who he is well it s heart breaking How many times can you be labelled something horrible, be negatively judged by the society within which you live, be treated atrociously before it breaks you Before you feel there s no choice but to give in or give up What if I just stayed in bed What if I simply never left my house again What if I just quit breathing and drifted away BrookeYes, I go to church, yes I m a believer, no my Christianity by definition if there is such a thing, does not play a major part in how I treat other people or how I perceive and view the world What plays a part is my own sense of what s right and what s wrong The fundamentals and yard sticks, if you will, are there in society and who initially put them there, where it all began, what its role is and how you and I follow Well, that s an ongoing discussion in life and has no place in this review But love does Because love does not discriminate, love does not judge, love is the fundamental, the yardstick, the guide Love is not wrong Love conquers fear of the unknown and brings on hope With a majority, you ll always find a minority and vice versa, they walk hand in hand The difficult but important thing is to not judge by who is the loudest but by what you feel in your heart when you truly examine it.Brooke meets Jed at what I suppose is a crucial moment in his life He s finding his feet on his own and coming to terms with who he is out of hiding away from home He s also standing at a crossroad due to the health of his Mum back home You re the man I ve longed for and prayed for JedThere s one emotional scene in the rain where a question is asked and the poignancy of this story, through the words said, plays out between Jed and Brooke This scene right here is the crux of it and I cried with happy tears.Jed was fantastic for Brooke, he was the light to the dark, the certainty to the uncertainty He brought humour, support, love, strength and a balanced voice to the journey Goodnight, Brooke Someday, I want to dance in an elevator with you JedReading The shattered Door I couldn t help question everything I m a maudlin thinker anyway and get caught up in my own thoughts so much so that the world disappears, I can be a moody bitch at times yet this story made me into a raging mad woman I hated humanity in this story I hated what this small collection of people thought was right to do in the name of religion I hated certain characters, one in particular who broke the mold for nomination of world s worst Mum You are worthless, you dumb little fuck RoseI can safely say hate here and I own that hate, because it s an emotion, what I consequently do with that emotion is the important thing What I did was, I cried at the injustice, at the depravity, at the violence, at the hatred through verbal abuse I raged at the prejudice, at the fear of the unknown which can turn ugly, at the wrongness, but I did this all in the sanctuary of my own living room, best place really for your very own soap box.We all have a beginning and we all have an end, what we choose to do in the middle is all us it s on us Now, I m not perfect, I too can sometimes judge to easily and later regret that fact, I know this, and I own it But I do not understand, and I never will, how hatred can be aimed at love, what isbeautiful Love can be all encompassing and comes with many faces and in many guises and through many actions It should be celebrated, not sullied by fear and labels.So, after my crying and the raging, I rejoiced in the love and the hope that came out of the hate and the darkness I celebrated the strength and the bravery and the unwavering faith of our characters I was absolutely exhausted by the end I have to tell you What an incredibly well written emotional story, as if you haven t already guessed HA It really is quite a journey our Brooke goes on, one which I strongly encourage everyone to read It ll hurt, it ll make you question, yet it will also bring home the importance of respect, decency, the good that exists and the importance of faith, whatever that might be, and importantly it brings home hope It will also make you smile through tears and chuckle a few times too at the sarcasm and irony It was passionate, intense, beautiful and poignant How wonderful it would be to not care what others thought


  3. LenaRibka LenaRibka says:

    Audible I m still on the fence about this book On the one hand I enjoyed the writing and wanted to know what happened next.On the other handthere were so many things that personally annoyed me, so that I had partly to struggle to come through the plot My main issue was a religion topic Not that I WASN T prepared I had read the blurb and skimmed through some reviews before I picked up this book, but I honestly didn t expect it to be in THIS FORM I expected rather a big fat secret hiddeAudible I m still on the fence about this book On the one hand I enjoyed the writing and wanted to know what happened next.On the other handthere were so many things that personally annoyed me, so that I had partly to struggle to come through the plot My main issue was a religion topic Not that I WASN T prepared I had read the blurb and skimmed through some reviews before I picked up this book, but I honestly didn t expect it to be in THIS FORM I expected rather a big fat secret hidden deeply in the past of our MC that suddenly would be discovered and make his well ordered life to a living hell No, that wasn t the case It was religion on the daily basis Let me explain Brooke returned to his hometown for family reasons In El Dorado Springs the church rules the world And to such an extent that borders on incredibility and ludicrousness It seems, the only concern ALL citizens of this small community have in their lives, is to be good Christians I think this phrase was like in every second sentence in the second part of the book What century are we living in I can t imagine a church could have so much power and control over people every day s lives, but I m not from the USA Other countries, other customs To be both, a good Christian and gay, is difficult, but possible And Brooke tried to prove it with all his positive power and mood, excellent principles and good intentions He didn t succeed What one needed to convince the population of El Dorado Springs was only a single view spoiler failed suicide attempt, and suddenly he became welcome I was wondering what would happen, if this kid didn t try to kill himself Brooke would have probably never been able to cross the threshold of this place of worship in his life And what did we learn from it No idea hide spoiler I hate the ending.Because of Donnie Because I didn t understand it Why It didn t match with the story line Did it teach us view spoiler that sex before marriage is BAD It is why God punished a sinner What message did this deadly car accident deliver No idea hide spoiler All in all I found the narrative by Andrew McFerrin okay, but his way to present the old ladies was horrible Unfortunately there were MANY OLD LADIES in this book I d prefer he kept his normal voice for the old women, and didn t try to sound like an old witch es instead All in all, despite my list of issues, I was invested in the story and I found the idea with the shattered door very beautiful and symbolical I still hope to find a book by Brandon Witt that will satisfy all my criteria The one of the important ones he has already met


  4. Pavellit Pavellit says:

    Brooke Morrison s story is truly captivating, emotional and very thought provoking A story for a rough live and struggles Accepting yourself as a gay and trying to discover if God still loves you.Even accepting the cruelty of a mother s love A toxic mother who constantly tears you apart A dismissive mother who make you feel unworthy and a mistake of nature After all, you can t exactly dump your mom and then jump online to look for a new one.Now The narrator, Andrew McFerrin, did a truly Brooke Morrison s story is truly captivating, emotional and very thought provoking A story for a rough live and struggles Accepting yourself as a gay and trying to discover if God still loves you.Even accepting the cruelty of a mother s love A toxic mother who constantly tears you apart A dismissive mother who make you feel unworthy and a mistake of nature After all, you can t exactly dump your mom and then jump online to look for a new one.Now The narrator, Andrew McFerrin, did a truly superb job, nails ever voice astonishingly.I am so glad I read this remarkable book Yes, it was a very heavy read with several moments stopping your breath but it is a powerful piece of LGBT fiction that need to be placed on the most visible spot on your bookshelf Thank you mother nature for giving a couple rainy days and thank you Mr.Witt for this penetratingly fascinating book God bless you


  5. Melissa Melissa says:

    There was too much telling and not enough showing I liked the start and then boom, they meet, have a connection and talk Then we jump 6 years in the future Um, why Why don t I get to see them fall in love and get married I wanted to see that I didn t care for how the story was organized and again, to much telling and it seemed to drag the story down Information overload I didn t need to know most of what was told to me 2.5 stars rounded to 3 because I can see the appeal for this one W There was too much telling and not enough showing I liked the start and then boom, they meet, have a connection and talk Then we jump 6 years in the future Um, why Why don t I get to see them fall in love and get married I wanted to see that I didn t care for how the story was organized and again, to much telling and it seemed to drag the story down Information overload I didn t need to know most of what was told to me 2.5 stars rounded to 3 because I can see the appeal for this one Wish it had worked better for me


  6. Paul Paul says:

    Coming from another country and being a gay male, where religion does not play a big part within the population, I mean it s literally non existent for 70 80% of the people, maybeThe Shattered Door opens a dark portal into the heart of the Bible Belt in the US and gives a frank account of the struggles to grow up there within the LGBT community I can t even fathom that nearly everyone in small country towns attends church but I have a lot of US friends online and this story rings so tru Coming from another country and being a gay male, where religion does not play a big part within the population, I mean it s literally non existent for 70 80% of the people, maybeThe Shattered Door opens a dark portal into the heart of the Bible Belt in the US and gives a frank account of the struggles to grow up there within the LGBT community I can t even fathom that nearly everyone in small country towns attends church but I have a lot of US friends online and this story rings so true to the horrors they dealt with I will never understand it and nor do I EVER want to, but it was necessary to get the entire meaning of this book across It s an excellent novel and I actually despise novels set in this location because they infuriates me but this one caught my attention so I m glad I read it because it s given me one of the most insightful and what I personally perceived as a rather accurate and commonplace occurrence It s also very well written but this is not a nice story so TRIGGER WARNINGS for a lot of physical and mental abuse However much I hate this, it was necessary to convey this story correctly No matter how dark it gets at times I so glad I read, but it has left me feeling cold because it s still happening I was intrigued with the inner workings of this book and US Christianity but it really upset me and it s such a detailed description that I felt like it was almost autobiographical in nature and I didn t find anything happy or positive about the story Don t get me wrong, it worth the read but it s not for everyone and Brandon Witt really got his point across.I d also like to say I mean no offence but from an outsiders perspective it s so distressing and this needs to stop It kills so many people from suicide to hate crimes More people need to know and help to put a stop to it


  7. Kaje Harper Kaje Harper says:

    4.5 stars I ve read several books by Brandon Witt, and they have an interesting quality, where at first I feel a little detached, and distant from the narrative At some point in the first couple of chapters I usually think that it s pretty good, but I m not getting pulled into the characters and story And then slowly, almost without noticing it, I get sucked into his characters minds and lives This one The Shattered Door was like that It also shares other characteristics I m coming to 4.5 stars I ve read several books by Brandon Witt, and they have an interesting quality, where at first I feel a little detached, and distant from the narrative At some point in the first couple of chapters I usually think that it s pretty good, but I m not getting pulled into the characters and story And then slowly, almost without noticing it, I get sucked into his characters minds and lives This one The Shattered Door was like that It also shares other characteristics I m coming to expect There are revelations, and events, good, bad, and in between, that often work outlow key than I expect, dodging melodrama but delivering emotion with a hit of realism Although this story delivers one not low key kick in the heart The Shattered Door is about Brooke, a man who grew up with an alcoholic and emotionally abusive mother, in a small Southern town Brooke left home, studied to become a Youth Minister, but came to the realization that he was never going to pray his gay away From that point on, we watch Brooke building a life that has purpose and meaning, figuring out whom to trust, rebuilding his relationship with God, and reconnecting with his past There s a romantic relationship in here, but it is very rarely the main focus of the story This is about making space in your heart for imperfect people, for a religion that matters but whose institutions may not make room for you, and about finding purpose and peace with things you cannot change The small town Brooke returns to, and the church within it, are a big part of his growth and self discovery, again without huge melodrama , as a man who grew up expecting his faith to be central to his life In some ways it reminds me of one gay man s journey through the serenity prayer, with wrong done to him, and good fortune as well Brooke has to learn when he can make a difference, what he must or dares to trust, and what he must find the serenity to let go, even when it cuts him deeply


  8. John Sontag John Sontag says:

    Although this book is well constructed, written with love and care, and edited perfectly, it does nothing to help eliminate the chasm between religion and homosexuality I enjoyed the characters and their journeys, but I found the message that this book gives is unrealistic It is a good story But, ultimately I cannot agree with its entire premise The story has been told before, many times And this just didn t work for me The characters were just two dimensional and lacked that real depth th Although this book is well constructed, written with love and care, and edited perfectly, it does nothing to help eliminate the chasm between religion and homosexuality I enjoyed the characters and their journeys, but I found the message that this book gives is unrealistic It is a good story But, ultimately I cannot agree with its entire premise The story has been told before, many times And this just didn t work for me The characters were just two dimensional and lacked that real depth that made you feel their motivations So many others have tackled this subject and beensuccessful in maintaining arealistic resolution Brandon Shire and Jim Grimsley are great examples of writers who have realistically portrayed the real power of what religion can do.I find it astounding that so many people can t let go of the simple fact that god, in whatever form you choose to imagine, can ever accept homosexuality There will always be a need for religion, just not a religion that makes hate a part of its doctrine Part of what it does is help us as a society to be moral It teaches us to love one another But there is no amount of twisting and turning and interpretation of the bible that will ever reconcile it with being gay Some people, out of necessity have deluded themselves into believing that somehow god, or jehovah or whomever will accept them into some form of organized religion That is not to say that religion is some form does not have its place in our world, for I believe that without it, we would lose our capacity for caring, for love, to live moral, ethical lives Being gay has nothing to do with some supposed god, it is simply what is in our genetic makeup Gay and god simply are diametrically incompatible with each other I understand how some of us choose to use the bible and it s many interpretations to allow them to be a part of some religion, but they are deluding themselves into thinking that they are in any way accepted by religious heterosexuals Religion is for those who feel that they need it Some of us don t At least not the part that tells us who we are What I m trying to say is don t ever, not ever try to tell me who I am.I can easily see why so many people gave this novel 5 star reviews It is well written and tells them EXACTLY what they want to hear For myself, it just shows how the two are so completely incompatible I am gay and in a 35 year relationship My life partner and I have done nothing but good, caring and loving things for our fellow man We are loved by others and have tried to make a difference in the world Without god That should be enough


  9. Marc | Rainbow Gold Reviews Marc | Rainbow Gold Reviews says:

    This book has been on my TBR since 2013 Yes, that s right It took 4.5 years for me to get the up the courage to finally read this truly beautiful, yet devestatingly heartbreaking book I have heard so much about it from people who loved it, but who were emotionally shattered after reading this story It became one of those reads, where I knew it would be amazing, but I would not be able to read it with my heart intact This special category of books usually takes me longer to get to, because I This book has been on my TBR since 2013 Yes, that s right It took 4.5 years for me to get the up the courage to finally read this truly beautiful, yet devestatingly heartbreaking book I have heard so much about it from people who loved it, but who were emotionally shattered after reading this story It became one of those reads, where I knew it would be amazing, but I would not be able to read it with my heart intact This special category of books usually takes me longer to get to, because I have to be in the right mood and steel myself books like Chase in Shadow by Amy Lane, Bloodlines by Andrea Speed or Something like Autumn by Jay Bell But they are unforgettable So, don t say I didn t warn you, but if you are ready for this journey, I am certain you will not regret it.I am so glad that this story was produced as audiobook, because I havetime to listen to stories than I have to read them I m a very slow reader I have listened to tons of audiobooks, but I have to say Andrew McFerrin truly impressed me here This story is complex and emotionally charged and he did a brilliant job I can strongly recommend the audiobook, if you enjoy listening to books like I do He truly delivers on the kind of on point narration that this beautiful book deserves.This book is not a mere romance The gay romance is an important part of this book, but certainly not the focus However, for me the romance was the anker I needed when the angst of the book tried to crush my heart again and again Brooke Morrison, the main character, finds his perfect guy in the first part of the book A great guy, with a wonderful, rich and welcoming family It gives the couple a very strong foundation with a security net The is someone truly special and it is clear the two belong together A fact that is so clear that even the MC does not question it Mostly Both the MC and his guy as well as most of their friends and family have faith and Brooke s relationship to god is very important to him He knew he was attracted to guys from a young age and it seemed to be a sin to him and threatened his view of the world He wanted to be good and worthy for god, but was never able to pray the gay away and constantly thought he was disappointing god That was until he just accepted himself and found that brought him closer to god again than anything else.Even while not all people of faith accept his sexuality, his own faith gives strength to Brooke and has always been important to him I love that he was able to find himself and accept his sexuality I have always been interested in religion and was raised catholic, but even when I realized I was gay, I still felt loved by god When I came out, all the people I know who are very religious like my grandmother and a few of my friends supported me without blinking Even though the church as a whole is often 10 steps behind the times, there are many people who understand god s will in loving each other and see everyone as god made and perfect, just as they are Even if they may not personally understand same sex attraction.Homosexuality and Faith are two topics that do not seem to go together easily, but the author does an amazing job of showing the beauty of Brooke s faith and the strength it gives to him something he wants to share with young adults who are struggling , but also the difficulties he has at times It makes certain thingsproblematic for him, closes some doors for him permanently and makes him very vulnerable for attacks.There are many very different characters with different views on god and homosexuality and Brandon Witt manages to humanize even the most mean spirited and poisonous persons, without excusing their behavior There is a truly wonderful cast of characters some of them very unique and unforgettable, all of them lovingly crafted by the author even in their flaws There are also very difficult characters who are easy to judge and hate, but who are treated with grace andunderstanding from the author than I would have been able to come up with for them Over time, as readers follow Brooke as he confronts his difficult past, we learn terrible things that have happened to him and other characters that are truly heartbreaking and give new insights into many characters Readers start to understand how complex and mult layered they are, just like we are as humans.There are many problems Brooke has to face and I loved how realistically the author handles them No Deus Ex Machina here, with all the problems suddenly solving themselves or someone being able to resolve them through a string of most fortunate and puzzling miracles Some things are bad and unfair and stay that way, because there are no easy solutions Some things that threaten to blow up in the biggest, most dramatic way, end up being resolved in a muchquiet and unexpected way It felt real to me and thus I was muchinvested.The journey of Brooke s life is full of unexpected twists and turns It is full of love and faith and friendship It is full of unexpected support and unimaginable hatred It is full of heartbreaking grief and unending hope It shows us the best and the worst of people The things that we can change and the things we need to accept It is a truly complex and well written story of a man, who has captured my heart forever I was captivated by Brooke s story and cared so much about what happened to him and the family he surrounds himself with that the things that happen in this book really affected me But that is the sign of a great story and a fantastic narration 9.5 10 Pots of Gold 95% recommended Compares to 4.75 5 Stars


  10. Kristie Kristie says:

    Brooke is hurting How could he not be This book OMG this book I can t say I loved it, and liking it seems wrong as well This was one of those stories that made me feel a lot of things, a lot of them bad, and a lot of them angry, few of them good and happy I almost felt emotionally manipulated into finishing it at a time I didn t want to There is so much hate, prejudice, and mental abuse in Brooke s background that I felt suffocated It has had such a lasting effect on him, to the point th Brooke is hurting How could he not be This book OMG this book I can t say I loved it, and liking it seems wrong as well This was one of those stories that made me feel a lot of things, a lot of them bad, and a lot of them angry, few of them good and happy I almost felt emotionally manipulated into finishing it at a time I didn t want to There is so much hate, prejudice, and mental abuse in Brooke s background that I felt suffocated It has had such a lasting effect on him, to the point that it is very debilitating It hurt to read It hurt a fuck of a lot And then there s Jed He s had everything in a life that Brooke should have had Loving parents and family, a career he loves, and acceptance He s the other side of the coin from Brooke He s the light, where everything in Brooke s life has been dark Perhaps if there wasJed in the book, it would not have hurt so much The problem with that is story would have suffered Hurt is what you re meant to feel You need to feel that hurt Brooke has inside him, so that when he comes out of it in the end, the finish is all the better I have a lot of problems with this book because of Brooke s mother At one point someone even tries to justify the reasons why his mother is the way she is There are always reasons, right The problem with that is everyone has a choice She chooses wrong for so much of her life, she has no redeeming qualities She s hateful, horrible, abusive she s the whole kitchen sink filled with garbage I was sorry to learn of her own childhood and her own problems in life What I can t understand is why she felt the need to take it out on her own kid Then there is the religious factor This small town with their limited ability to be understanding of any different lifestyles that don t toe the line of their own frustrated me beyond belief There is also a certain level of unbelievably that goes along with some parts of the story Still I could go on and on And it probably seems like I didn t find much to like in this story That would not be true Throughout the story of Brooke s life, I was so contemplative It was easy to fall into the world where Brooke lived, and equally easy to compare it to my own life Looking back, I realized that I was comparing everything to Brooke It made me think like, a lot It made me think about a lot of things Made me wonder how I would have handled the same types of situations What would I do Brooke is a very, very, very good person It s crushing to see someone that bright and wonderful, go through such horrible things in their life What is wonderful about it is how he comes out of it in the end When he shatters that door in the end, breaks through both figuratively and in reality, it s awesome, and he s finally free So while this is not a book I would normally read, much less recommend, I did, and I do, and I hope you also get something out of it Thank you to NetGalley for a copy of this book for my honest review.


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10 thoughts on “The Shattered Door

  1. Mark Mark says:

    This was an incredibly brave book I think The bare bones of the story is of a gay man returning to his home town to encounter and face up to the past he fled which includes an appallingly cruel mother and unresolved side issues of rejection and self acceptance which is complicated by an unexplained situation with his work which involved caring for and counselling young offenders.It is also a love story, a story of injustice and intolerance, of deep friendships and family ties and central to the This was an incredibly brave book I think The bare bones of the story is of a gay man returning to his home town to encounter and face up to the past he fled which includes an appallingly cruel mother and unresolved side issues of rejection and self acceptance which is complicated by an unexplained situation with his work which involved caring for and counselling young offenders.It is also a love story, a story of injustice and intolerance, of deep friendships and family ties and central to the whole thing, and it is this as a gay Christian that i found so moving, is the struggle of men and women seeking a relationship with God to find the support in a Church that is not renowned for its tolerance or openness.The characters are, to a large extent and with one or two exceptions, well drawn and Witt captures the repartee and cut and thrust of friends and lovers really well i think He comunicates that sense of common history and experience between friends without it becoming cloying or heavily artificial or obviously false I am not saying he always achieves this but there arehits than misses here As a first person narrative it works because we encounter the world through Brooklyn s eyes and these eyes are largely clear and positive though they do, from time to time, become jaded and bitter The other characters speak and communicate clearly and openly and so his response is one which we can follow and understand A small caveat here would be perhaps that some of the characters are a little too good to be true and the faith positions of one or two, Sue his Aunt in particular, smack of having been jammed on the top of a not particularly believable character She is the figure of the simple woman of faith but she did not ring true for me and so her fears and responses and minor repentances always seemed a tad dry and dusty Having said that I think some of the characters were fabulous and evn if they were not real i would want them to be in my friendship circle or sitting next to me at Church.That is one inevitable drawback to a book such as this I am a catholic and found Witt spoke to me in a good deal of the narrative drive, especially in the hero s own faith journeying and the questions he had had to address and indeed with which he was still struggling but i do wonder whether many people coming to this book without a faith and therefore perhaps without the mindset of Brooke would see no deeper than the idea that it was a book about prejudice and the intolerance of the Church and not see Brooke s quest as a genuine and reasonable one or indeed one worth wasting any time over This would seem to me to be a shame Though it would be a small circle of interest if dwelling too much on the specifics I think Witt really addresses all sorts of questions about trust and fidelity to friend and family, about judging by appearance and the foulness of hypocrisy, about freedom and the courage to be real which are, i suppose, basic questions of humanity.My negatives are few but are, for me, real When this goes to a second edition, and I certainly hope it will, the publishers must get a better proof reader and punctuation expert I had begun to mark the mistakes in the book but after 40 I thought it superfluous Words are spelt wrong on a regular basis, apostrophes sometimes seem to have lives of their own and words are sometimes omitted in the most unfortunate of circumstances At one point our hero is speaking to a young lad who is coming out to him Before i could stop him, he fell forward and wrapped his around my waist and pulled tightly against me It is obvious what word is missing but the fact that it is just smacked of some cheap double entendre Evidently that is not what was meant but it is unfortunate to say the least This is one of a number of such mistakes which come at emotionally charged moments in the narrative and jar horribly.There is also the perpetual hazard of the omnipresent gorgeous people Some of you who have read other of my reviews have perhaps encountered my dislike of this need for authors to write as though everyone in the world is either beautiful once was is on the way to being or they are on the side of the Trogledytes I find this continual having to big up the beauty of characters annoying Of course it could be rank jealousy I acknowledge but I do think it isthan just me feeling bereft that I am not an English Brad Pitt Plain people can be lovely too and they can also be very romantically involved i am sure Wouldn t it be great if just once the heroes and heroines of these books were allowed to be just normal and did not need to be straight off Mt Olympus Maybe i should start a campaign for ordinary looking plebs to dominate some romance plots.Having griped and moaned I would not want any person to think that i am heavily criticizing this novel I found it very moving from all sorts of angles and, in relation to the whole misplaced temptation to make gay and paedophile synonymous, I think it was an honest and brilliant account Thanks Brandon Really worth reading


  2. Gitte TotallyBookedBlog Gitte TotallyBookedBlog says:

    Reviewed on think I can safely say that this story is one which has touched me and affected methan many before it Every so often, and I mean often, I had to stop reading and try and process and digest what I d just read Call me na ve, hell, call me ignorant, but I have never in my thirty eight years of life come across anything remotely close to what I just read I grew up in five different countries, lived insmall villages, towns and citi Reviewed on think I can safely say that this story is one which has touched me and affected methan many before it Every so often, and I mean often, I had to stop reading and try and process and digest what I d just read Call me na ve, hell, call me ignorant, but I have never in my thirty eight years of life come across anything remotely close to what I just read I grew up in five different countries, lived insmall villages, towns and cities than is typical growing up, yet I have never come across such hatred or even personally known of its existence Yet exist it does, sadly It breaks my heart.However, this story is not just a story of prejudice and hate, it s a story of family and friendships, of support and guidance, of love and hope What I have to mention is that there is obviously a heavy theme of religion which isn t for everyone It actually isn t something I myself enjoy in books, however, this story is about so muchand if you re like me, you will fall in love with the characters and the battle of staying true to who you are to achieve contentment and happiness in life.What our hero Brooklyn has to go through as a gay Christian whose vocation in life not job may I add is helping kids in youth groups, is truly appalling Not only has he had a traumatic childhood, it literally continues into his adulthood This guy is still finding his place in life whilst his sexuality, his beliefs, his past and his present makes him question himself tremendously His growth and his strength in this story is immense as he finds love and purpose His wanting to be accepted for who he is well it s heart breaking How many times can you be labelled something horrible, be negatively judged by the society within which you live, be treated atrociously before it breaks you Before you feel there s no choice but to give in or give up What if I just stayed in bed What if I simply never left my house again What if I just quit breathing and drifted away BrookeYes, I go to church, yes I m a believer, no my Christianity by definition if there is such a thing, does not play a major part in how I treat other people or how I perceive and view the world What plays a part is my own sense of what s right and what s wrong The fundamentals and yard sticks, if you will, are there in society and who initially put them there, where it all began, what its role is and how you and I follow Well, that s an ongoing discussion in life and has no place in this review But love does Because love does not discriminate, love does not judge, love is the fundamental, the yardstick, the guide Love is not wrong Love conquers fear of the unknown and brings on hope With a majority, you ll always find a minority and vice versa, they walk hand in hand The difficult but important thing is to not judge by who is the loudest but by what you feel in your heart when you truly examine it.Brooke meets Jed at what I suppose is a crucial moment in his life He s finding his feet on his own and coming to terms with who he is out of hiding away from home He s also standing at a crossroad due to the health of his Mum back home You re the man I ve longed for and prayed for JedThere s one emotional scene in the rain where a question is asked and the poignancy of this story, through the words said, plays out between Jed and Brooke This scene right here is the crux of it and I cried with happy tears.Jed was fantastic for Brooke, he was the light to the dark, the certainty to the uncertainty He brought humour, support, love, strength and a balanced voice to the journey Goodnight, Brooke Someday, I want to dance in an elevator with you JedReading The shattered Door I couldn t help question everything I m a maudlin thinker anyway and get caught up in my own thoughts so much so that the world disappears, I can be a moody bitch at times yet this story made me into a raging mad woman I hated humanity in this story I hated what this small collection of people thought was right to do in the name of religion I hated certain characters, one in particular who broke the mold for nomination of world s worst Mum You are worthless, you dumb little fuck RoseI can safely say hate here and I own that hate, because it s an emotion, what I consequently do with that emotion is the important thing What I did was, I cried at the injustice, at the depravity, at the violence, at the hatred through verbal abuse I raged at the prejudice, at the fear of the unknown which can turn ugly, at the wrongness, but I did this all in the sanctuary of my own living room, best place really for your very own soap box.We all have a beginning and we all have an end, what we choose to do in the middle is all us it s on us Now, I m not perfect, I too can sometimes judge to easily and later regret that fact, I know this, and I own it But I do not understand, and I never will, how hatred can be aimed at love, what isbeautiful Love can be all encompassing and comes with many faces and in many guises and through many actions It should be celebrated, not sullied by fear and labels.So, after my crying and the raging, I rejoiced in the love and the hope that came out of the hate and the darkness I celebrated the strength and the bravery and the unwavering faith of our characters I was absolutely exhausted by the end I have to tell you What an incredibly well written emotional story, as if you haven t already guessed HA It really is quite a journey our Brooke goes on, one which I strongly encourage everyone to read It ll hurt, it ll make you question, yet it will also bring home the importance of respect, decency, the good that exists and the importance of faith, whatever that might be, and importantly it brings home hope It will also make you smile through tears and chuckle a few times too at the sarcasm and irony It was passionate, intense, beautiful and poignant How wonderful it would be to not care what others thought


  3. LenaRibka LenaRibka says:

    Audible I m still on the fence about this book On the one hand I enjoyed the writing and wanted to know what happened next.On the other handthere were so many things that personally annoyed me, so that I had partly to struggle to come through the plot My main issue was a religion topic Not that I WASN T prepared I had read the blurb and skimmed through some reviews before I picked up this book, but I honestly didn t expect it to be in THIS FORM I expected rather a big fat secret hiddeAudible I m still on the fence about this book On the one hand I enjoyed the writing and wanted to know what happened next.On the other handthere were so many things that personally annoyed me, so that I had partly to struggle to come through the plot My main issue was a religion topic Not that I WASN T prepared I had read the blurb and skimmed through some reviews before I picked up this book, but I honestly didn t expect it to be in THIS FORM I expected rather a big fat secret hidden deeply in the past of our MC that suddenly would be discovered and make his well ordered life to a living hell No, that wasn t the case It was religion on the daily basis Let me explain Brooke returned to his hometown for family reasons In El Dorado Springs the church rules the world And to such an extent that borders on incredibility and ludicrousness It seems, the only concern ALL citizens of this small community have in their lives, is to be good Christians I think this phrase was like in every second sentence in the second part of the book What century are we living in I can t imagine a church could have so much power and control over people every day s lives, but I m not from the USA Other countries, other customs To be both, a good Christian and gay, is difficult, but possible And Brooke tried to prove it with all his positive power and mood, excellent principles and good intentions He didn t succeed What one needed to convince the population of El Dorado Springs was only a single view spoiler failed suicide attempt, and suddenly he became welcome I was wondering what would happen, if this kid didn t try to kill himself Brooke would have probably never been able to cross the threshold of this place of worship in his life And what did we learn from it No idea hide spoiler I hate the ending.Because of Donnie Because I didn t understand it Why It didn t match with the story line Did it teach us view spoiler that sex before marriage is BAD It is why God punished a sinner What message did this deadly car accident deliver No idea hide spoiler All in all I found the narrative by Andrew McFerrin okay, but his way to present the old ladies was horrible Unfortunately there were MANY OLD LADIES in this book I d prefer he kept his normal voice for the old women, and didn t try to sound like an old witch es instead All in all, despite my list of issues, I was invested in the story and I found the idea with the shattered door very beautiful and symbolical I still hope to find a book by Brandon Witt that will satisfy all my criteria The one of the important ones he has already met


  4. Pavellit Pavellit says:

    Brooke Morrison s story is truly captivating, emotional and very thought provoking A story for a rough live and struggles Accepting yourself as a gay and trying to discover if God still loves you.Even accepting the cruelty of a mother s love A toxic mother who constantly tears you apart A dismissive mother who make you feel unworthy and a mistake of nature After all, you can t exactly dump your mom and then jump online to look for a new one.Now The narrator, Andrew McFerrin, did a truly Brooke Morrison s story is truly captivating, emotional and very thought provoking A story for a rough live and struggles Accepting yourself as a gay and trying to discover if God still loves you.Even accepting the cruelty of a mother s love A toxic mother who constantly tears you apart A dismissive mother who make you feel unworthy and a mistake of nature After all, you can t exactly dump your mom and then jump online to look for a new one.Now The narrator, Andrew McFerrin, did a truly superb job, nails ever voice astonishingly.I am so glad I read this remarkable book Yes, it was a very heavy read with several moments stopping your breath but it is a powerful piece of LGBT fiction that need to be placed on the most visible spot on your bookshelf Thank you mother nature for giving a couple rainy days and thank you Mr.Witt for this penetratingly fascinating book God bless you


  5. Melissa Melissa says:

    There was too much telling and not enough showing I liked the start and then boom, they meet, have a connection and talk Then we jump 6 years in the future Um, why Why don t I get to see them fall in love and get married I wanted to see that I didn t care for how the story was organized and again, to much telling and it seemed to drag the story down Information overload I didn t need to know most of what was told to me 2.5 stars rounded to 3 because I can see the appeal for this one W There was too much telling and not enough showing I liked the start and then boom, they meet, have a connection and talk Then we jump 6 years in the future Um, why Why don t I get to see them fall in love and get married I wanted to see that I didn t care for how the story was organized and again, to much telling and it seemed to drag the story down Information overload I didn t need to know most of what was told to me 2.5 stars rounded to 3 because I can see the appeal for this one Wish it had worked better for me


  6. Paul Paul says:

    Coming from another country and being a gay male, where religion does not play a big part within the population, I mean it s literally non existent for 70 80% of the people, maybeThe Shattered Door opens a dark portal into the heart of the Bible Belt in the US and gives a frank account of the struggles to grow up there within the LGBT community I can t even fathom that nearly everyone in small country towns attends church but I have a lot of US friends online and this story rings so tru Coming from another country and being a gay male, where religion does not play a big part within the population, I mean it s literally non existent for 70 80% of the people, maybeThe Shattered Door opens a dark portal into the heart of the Bible Belt in the US and gives a frank account of the struggles to grow up there within the LGBT community I can t even fathom that nearly everyone in small country towns attends church but I have a lot of US friends online and this story rings so true to the horrors they dealt with I will never understand it and nor do I EVER want to, but it was necessary to get the entire meaning of this book across It s an excellent novel and I actually despise novels set in this location because they infuriates me but this one caught my attention so I m glad I read it because it s given me one of the most insightful and what I personally perceived as a rather accurate and commonplace occurrence It s also very well written but this is not a nice story so TRIGGER WARNINGS for a lot of physical and mental abuse However much I hate this, it was necessary to convey this story correctly No matter how dark it gets at times I so glad I read, but it has left me feeling cold because it s still happening I was intrigued with the inner workings of this book and US Christianity but it really upset me and it s such a detailed description that I felt like it was almost autobiographical in nature and I didn t find anything happy or positive about the story Don t get me wrong, it worth the read but it s not for everyone and Brandon Witt really got his point across.I d also like to say I mean no offence but from an outsiders perspective it s so distressing and this needs to stop It kills so many people from suicide to hate crimes More people need to know and help to put a stop to it


  7. Kaje Harper Kaje Harper says:

    4.5 stars I ve read several books by Brandon Witt, and they have an interesting quality, where at first I feel a little detached, and distant from the narrative At some point in the first couple of chapters I usually think that it s pretty good, but I m not getting pulled into the characters and story And then slowly, almost without noticing it, I get sucked into his characters minds and lives This one The Shattered Door was like that It also shares other characteristics I m coming to 4.5 stars I ve read several books by Brandon Witt, and they have an interesting quality, where at first I feel a little detached, and distant from the narrative At some point in the first couple of chapters I usually think that it s pretty good, but I m not getting pulled into the characters and story And then slowly, almost without noticing it, I get sucked into his characters minds and lives This one The Shattered Door was like that It also shares other characteristics I m coming to expect There are revelations, and events, good, bad, and in between, that often work outlow key than I expect, dodging melodrama but delivering emotion with a hit of realism Although this story delivers one not low key kick in the heart The Shattered Door is about Brooke, a man who grew up with an alcoholic and emotionally abusive mother, in a small Southern town Brooke left home, studied to become a Youth Minister, but came to the realization that he was never going to pray his gay away From that point on, we watch Brooke building a life that has purpose and meaning, figuring out whom to trust, rebuilding his relationship with God, and reconnecting with his past There s a romantic relationship in here, but it is very rarely the main focus of the story This is about making space in your heart for imperfect people, for a religion that matters but whose institutions may not make room for you, and about finding purpose and peace with things you cannot change The small town Brooke returns to, and the church within it, are a big part of his growth and self discovery, again without huge melodrama , as a man who grew up expecting his faith to be central to his life In some ways it reminds me of one gay man s journey through the serenity prayer, with wrong done to him, and good fortune as well Brooke has to learn when he can make a difference, what he must or dares to trust, and what he must find the serenity to let go, even when it cuts him deeply


  8. John Sontag John Sontag says:

    Although this book is well constructed, written with love and care, and edited perfectly, it does nothing to help eliminate the chasm between religion and homosexuality I enjoyed the characters and their journeys, but I found the message that this book gives is unrealistic It is a good story But, ultimately I cannot agree with its entire premise The story has been told before, many times And this just didn t work for me The characters were just two dimensional and lacked that real depth th Although this book is well constructed, written with love and care, and edited perfectly, it does nothing to help eliminate the chasm between religion and homosexuality I enjoyed the characters and their journeys, but I found the message that this book gives is unrealistic It is a good story But, ultimately I cannot agree with its entire premise The story has been told before, many times And this just didn t work for me The characters were just two dimensional and lacked that real depth that made you feel their motivations So many others have tackled this subject and beensuccessful in maintaining arealistic resolution Brandon Shire and Jim Grimsley are great examples of writers who have realistically portrayed the real power of what religion can do.I find it astounding that so many people can t let go of the simple fact that god, in whatever form you choose to imagine, can ever accept homosexuality There will always be a need for religion, just not a religion that makes hate a part of its doctrine Part of what it does is help us as a society to be moral It teaches us to love one another But there is no amount of twisting and turning and interpretation of the bible that will ever reconcile it with being gay Some people, out of necessity have deluded themselves into believing that somehow god, or jehovah or whomever will accept them into some form of organized religion That is not to say that religion is some form does not have its place in our world, for I believe that without it, we would lose our capacity for caring, for love, to live moral, ethical lives Being gay has nothing to do with some supposed god, it is simply what is in our genetic makeup Gay and god simply are diametrically incompatible with each other I understand how some of us choose to use the bible and it s many interpretations to allow them to be a part of some religion, but they are deluding themselves into thinking that they are in any way accepted by religious heterosexuals Religion is for those who feel that they need it Some of us don t At least not the part that tells us who we are What I m trying to say is don t ever, not ever try to tell me who I am.I can easily see why so many people gave this novel 5 star reviews It is well written and tells them EXACTLY what they want to hear For myself, it just shows how the two are so completely incompatible I am gay and in a 35 year relationship My life partner and I have done nothing but good, caring and loving things for our fellow man We are loved by others and have tried to make a difference in the world Without god That should be enough


  9. Marc | Rainbow Gold Reviews Marc | Rainbow Gold Reviews says:

    This book has been on my TBR since 2013 Yes, that s right It took 4.5 years for me to get the up the courage to finally read this truly beautiful, yet devestatingly heartbreaking book I have heard so much about it from people who loved it, but who were emotionally shattered after reading this story It became one of those reads, where I knew it would be amazing, but I would not be able to read it with my heart intact This special category of books usually takes me longer to get to, because I This book has been on my TBR since 2013 Yes, that s right It took 4.5 years for me to get the up the courage to finally read this truly beautiful, yet devestatingly heartbreaking book I have heard so much about it from people who loved it, but who were emotionally shattered after reading this story It became one of those reads, where I knew it would be amazing, but I would not be able to read it with my heart intact This special category of books usually takes me longer to get to, because I have to be in the right mood and steel myself books like Chase in Shadow by Amy Lane, Bloodlines by Andrea Speed or Something like Autumn by Jay Bell But they are unforgettable So, don t say I didn t warn you, but if you are ready for this journey, I am certain you will not regret it.I am so glad that this story was produced as audiobook, because I havetime to listen to stories than I have to read them I m a very slow reader I have listened to tons of audiobooks, but I have to say Andrew McFerrin truly impressed me here This story is complex and emotionally charged and he did a brilliant job I can strongly recommend the audiobook, if you enjoy listening to books like I do He truly delivers on the kind of on point narration that this beautiful book deserves.This book is not a mere romance The gay romance is an important part of this book, but certainly not the focus However, for me the romance was the anker I needed when the angst of the book tried to crush my heart again and again Brooke Morrison, the main character, finds his perfect guy in the first part of the book A great guy, with a wonderful, rich and welcoming family It gives the couple a very strong foundation with a security net The is someone truly special and it is clear the two belong together A fact that is so clear that even the MC does not question it Mostly Both the MC and his guy as well as most of their friends and family have faith and Brooke s relationship to god is very important to him He knew he was attracted to guys from a young age and it seemed to be a sin to him and threatened his view of the world He wanted to be good and worthy for god, but was never able to pray the gay away and constantly thought he was disappointing god That was until he just accepted himself and found that brought him closer to god again than anything else.Even while not all people of faith accept his sexuality, his own faith gives strength to Brooke and has always been important to him I love that he was able to find himself and accept his sexuality I have always been interested in religion and was raised catholic, but even when I realized I was gay, I still felt loved by god When I came out, all the people I know who are very religious like my grandmother and a few of my friends supported me without blinking Even though the church as a whole is often 10 steps behind the times, there are many people who understand god s will in loving each other and see everyone as god made and perfect, just as they are Even if they may not personally understand same sex attraction.Homosexuality and Faith are two topics that do not seem to go together easily, but the author does an amazing job of showing the beauty of Brooke s faith and the strength it gives to him something he wants to share with young adults who are struggling , but also the difficulties he has at times It makes certain thingsproblematic for him, closes some doors for him permanently and makes him very vulnerable for attacks.There are many very different characters with different views on god and homosexuality and Brandon Witt manages to humanize even the most mean spirited and poisonous persons, without excusing their behavior There is a truly wonderful cast of characters some of them very unique and unforgettable, all of them lovingly crafted by the author even in their flaws There are also very difficult characters who are easy to judge and hate, but who are treated with grace andunderstanding from the author than I would have been able to come up with for them Over time, as readers follow Brooke as he confronts his difficult past, we learn terrible things that have happened to him and other characters that are truly heartbreaking and give new insights into many characters Readers start to understand how complex and mult layered they are, just like we are as humans.There are many problems Brooke has to face and I loved how realistically the author handles them No Deus Ex Machina here, with all the problems suddenly solving themselves or someone being able to resolve them through a string of most fortunate and puzzling miracles Some things are bad and unfair and stay that way, because there are no easy solutions Some things that threaten to blow up in the biggest, most dramatic way, end up being resolved in a muchquiet and unexpected way It felt real to me and thus I was muchinvested.The journey of Brooke s life is full of unexpected twists and turns It is full of love and faith and friendship It is full of unexpected support and unimaginable hatred It is full of heartbreaking grief and unending hope It shows us the best and the worst of people The things that we can change and the things we need to accept It is a truly complex and well written story of a man, who has captured my heart forever I was captivated by Brooke s story and cared so much about what happened to him and the family he surrounds himself with that the things that happen in this book really affected me But that is the sign of a great story and a fantastic narration 9.5 10 Pots of Gold 95% recommended Compares to 4.75 5 Stars


  10. Kristie Kristie says:

    Brooke is hurting How could he not be This book OMG this book I can t say I loved it, and liking it seems wrong as well This was one of those stories that made me feel a lot of things, a lot of them bad, and a lot of them angry, few of them good and happy I almost felt emotionally manipulated into finishing it at a time I didn t want to There is so much hate, prejudice, and mental abuse in Brooke s background that I felt suffocated It has had such a lasting effect on him, to the point th Brooke is hurting How could he not be This book OMG this book I can t say I loved it, and liking it seems wrong as well This was one of those stories that made me feel a lot of things, a lot of them bad, and a lot of them angry, few of them good and happy I almost felt emotionally manipulated into finishing it at a time I didn t want to There is so much hate, prejudice, and mental abuse in Brooke s background that I felt suffocated It has had such a lasting effect on him, to the point that it is very debilitating It hurt to read It hurt a fuck of a lot And then there s Jed He s had everything in a life that Brooke should have had Loving parents and family, a career he loves, and acceptance He s the other side of the coin from Brooke He s the light, where everything in Brooke s life has been dark Perhaps if there wasJed in the book, it would not have hurt so much The problem with that is story would have suffered Hurt is what you re meant to feel You need to feel that hurt Brooke has inside him, so that when he comes out of it in the end, the finish is all the better I have a lot of problems with this book because of Brooke s mother At one point someone even tries to justify the reasons why his mother is the way she is There are always reasons, right The problem with that is everyone has a choice She chooses wrong for so much of her life, she has no redeeming qualities She s hateful, horrible, abusive she s the whole kitchen sink filled with garbage I was sorry to learn of her own childhood and her own problems in life What I can t understand is why she felt the need to take it out on her own kid Then there is the religious factor This small town with their limited ability to be understanding of any different lifestyles that don t toe the line of their own frustrated me beyond belief There is also a certain level of unbelievably that goes along with some parts of the story Still I could go on and on And it probably seems like I didn t find much to like in this story That would not be true Throughout the story of Brooke s life, I was so contemplative It was easy to fall into the world where Brooke lived, and equally easy to compare it to my own life Looking back, I realized that I was comparing everything to Brooke It made me think like, a lot It made me think about a lot of things Made me wonder how I would have handled the same types of situations What would I do Brooke is a very, very, very good person It s crushing to see someone that bright and wonderful, go through such horrible things in their life What is wonderful about it is how he comes out of it in the end When he shatters that door in the end, breaks through both figuratively and in reality, it s awesome, and he s finally free So while this is not a book I would normally read, much less recommend, I did, and I do, and I hope you also get something out of it Thank you to NetGalley for a copy of this book for my honest review.


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